THE PIERCED HAND

I smile, I laugh

I encourage, I pray

But will I make it?

Will I make it through the night?

I made it through the night

I tried to reach out,

To reach out, but they cared less.

The dark fog slowly eclipses me.

My vision is blocked.

My heart is gradually sinking

Sinking in this billowy blackness;

Where hope is a vacant phrase.

Father can You hear me?

Spirit hear the cries of my heart,

The cries I can’t communicate.

Pray to the Father for me.

I smile again!

For I see the Hand.

The hand that extends itself to lead me out...

The Pierced Hand!

REMIND ME OH GOD

Many are the times that we pray, but we sometimes see no results. Is it that God does not hear? Far be from it! He hears. As the Bible says in James 4:3, we ask amiss! When we fail to pray according to the will of God, we are praying amiss! We need to ask God to give us His desires because they will now become our desires as well and He will meet those desires! If there is one thing that puts God in “debt”, it’s to remind Him through prayer of what He says in His Word; for He now has to fulfill it. God is not a man that He should lie and He also says in Isa 55:11 that none of the words that go forth from His mouth will return to Him void. So we can pray using scripture!

There are times that we also feel discouraged and need Him to remind us His Word and promises towards us. Around last year, I happened to read some of those promises via social media and I made them into a prayer! I have decided to share it below so that it can be a blessing to many.

(Credit goes to one Timothy B.)

REMIND ME OH GOD!!

Remind me Oh God

That it’s Your word in Psalms 119:49 which I hope in.

Remember Your promise to me.

Remind me that man shall not live by bread alone

But by every word that proceeds from Your mouth.

Remind me of Thy word Oh God

That You’re the one who clothes the lilies of the valley

And provides for the birds of the air.

Remind me Oh God

That I got no faith of my own.

Even the faith I have, I draw it from thy word.

  

Remind me oh God

That it’s Your word in Psalms 119:11

Hidden in my heart that I may not sin against You.

Remind me that You’re Jehovah Rapha

That broken hearts are healed by thy word.

Teach me to remember that:

Relationships are sustained by Your word

And not our experience and expertise.

Remind me Oh Lord,

Of Your word in Psalms 68:6

That You are the one who sets the lonely in families.

Remind me not to worry

Because Your word in Isaiah 34:16 says;

None shall lack a mate.

And when I feel delayed Lord,

Remind me that it’s Your word in Psalms 119:25

That says You will quicken me.

Remind me that every good thing comes from You God.

Aren’t husbands and wives a heritage from thee?

Remind me Oh God

The word in Psalms 119:81,

That in my moments of giving up and fainting,

It is thy word that I hope in.

Remind me Lord,

That regardless of my circumstances

Your word in Jeremiah 29:11 says;

You have a good plan for me.

Remind me Oh God of Psalms 119:105

That in my moments of darkness,

When nothing makes sense;

Your word is a lamp unto my feet.

Remind me oh God

That I’m blessed not because I did anything good

But because the word says I’m blessed.

Remind me Lord that I’m at the top

Not because of my brains

But because thy word says;

I am the head and not the tail.

Like in Psalms 119:74

Let thy children rejoice when they see me Lord,

Because I have hoped in Thy word.

Lord, may I remember that the hope I have

I draw it from Your word.

AMEN.

BETTER TO HAVE LOVED AND LOST...

I know how it feels to love that person whose single room seems like a hall, but you fill it with your love. I know the joy and pain of seeing it transform to a home in a few months but be rejected by the would be mother-in-law due to your ethnicity.

But better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.

I know how it feels to love the one who has it all going on for him, but feel empty inside most of the time. When money and gifts replace the person and the love; Some say love can be bought, but mine cannot be equated to any currency.  Then you realize that money cannot comfort or talk to you, and you choose to move on with normal life...

But still, better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

I also know how it is to lack; when you have to go to cheap restaurants for your dates so you can save. When you have to share everything from food, transport and also airtime, just so you can both keep in touch; Only for you to have to go separate routes in this journey called life.

But better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

Oh I know how it feels to love someone who doesn’t love you back. The one you strive to be there for in all circumstances but they don’t appreciate any of your efforts. When all they see are your wrongs, faults and flaws…

But then again, better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

Yes I know how it feels to be loved by the one who loves you like Christ loves the church. The one who loves you to death! The joy of having that one person who makes you understand why the rest never worked. Oh the joy…

                              

                                                  …To be continued…

GOD WORKS DIFFERENTLY

I grew up in an environment that was full of Asians and we would obviously play together. We would be invited to their functions and I actually love their food till now. One thing that stood out for me was the little girls with their nose rings! I so admired them while I was still in lower primary to an extent I told my mum how I wanted a nose piercing. Your guess is as good as the reality, because she told me how my nose would “grow big”, I would catch flu and hence wouldn’t be able to blow my nose, and all scary theories.  Her negative response made me stop thinking about it. Fast forward after college, I waited till I moved to my own house and well a day after my 25^th birthday; I went to have it pierced! When I put my mind to something, I rarely give up!

Little did I know that it would raise eyebrows within the church! “How can a born again lady who is in the praise and worship team pierce her nose?”, “Now will God even speak to you in that conference with your nose ring on?” another quipped as we were on our way to a conference! I almost answered but my friend gave me a look that casually told me to let it pass! 

See, God is no respecter of persons, because that conference happened to be the one that God used the visiting Man of God to confirm to me my calling and let me know what I was to do! My nose ring didn’t stop God in any way! I have even met those who ask if I’m from the Coastal regions or if I’m a Muslim just because of it, because a ‘born again’ lady shouldn’t put on such!

This makes me go back to Gen 24. The story about Isaac and Rebecca! The bible speaks how Abraham’s servant carried jewelry and even put it on Rebecca. So it’s not something that just start recently, the mother of Jacob (Israel) and Esau put on one! There are other instances in the bible which mention nose rings as well as you will see below; 

Gen 24:  ²² When the camels had finished drinking, the man took out a gold nose ring weighing a beka and two gold bracelets weighing ten shekels. (NIV)

³⁰ As soon as he had seen the nose ring, and the bracelets on his sister’s arms, and had heard Rebecca tell what the man said to her, he went out to the man and found him standing by the camels near the spring. (NIV)

⁴⁷ “I asked her, ‘Whose daughter are you?’

“She said, ‘The daughter of Bethuel son of Nahor, whom Milkah bore to him.’

“Then I put the ring in her nose and the bracelets on her arms,…

Isa 3:21 the signet rings and nose rings,... 

Eze 16:12  and I put a ring on your nose, earrings on your ears and a beautiful crown on your head.

So child of God, before you decide who God should speak to or use, before you write off that widow or divorcee, before you look down on someone, get to know the person and understand that our thoughts are not the thoughts of God, neither are His ways our ways! He chooses whom He pleases and uses the foolish things to confound the wise. (1Cor 1:27)

Shalom

WHO ARE YOU?

Where are you,

Who’s gonna share your life with me?

By the way, who are you?

I just want us to minister together,

Have our bible studies together,

Laugh together,

Cry together,

Travel together,

And just enjoy life together!

I miss you…

I need you…

I want you…

The missing puzzle in my life,

Where are you?

And by the way,

Who are you?

Trish

THE TORN HEART

I loved you…

No, not because of what you had;

Not because of things I’d heard!

I loved you for you!

Oh what a genuine love I had!

I cared about you…

No, not because I wanted something from you;

But because I wanted the best for you.

Just to see you okay.

Oh how I deeply cared!

I was so free with you…

No, not because I didn’t have others to open up to,

But because I trusted you.

The friend I could say anything to!

Oh how I felt safe with you!

I always wanted to be there for you…

No, not because I expected the same from you.

I wanted to be a good friend,

To stand with you,

Oh just to be there for you!

BUT…

My love was never enough for you.

My care meant nothing to you.

You kept shutting down my efforts to be there for you.

You became too cold and it froze my heart,

And a high wall you built between us.

You pushed me away.

Oh how you pushed my heart away!

DEDICATED TO YOU...

"Patricia, you are one sweet woman and I will respect you to my grave. I am not saying this to flatter you, or because of what we have in common, no, but I have never met a woman like you. The way you carry yourself… I will die thanking God for really you are an angel that God sent to me from heaven. You are God sent! I am so proud of you and I pray God gives you all the best things in this life.”

These are words that would melt most hearts. Words that a friend said to me some few weeks ago, as I stood there feeling so emotional and not knowing how to react. Words that I will always hold dear seeing they came from someone who I’ve known for the last 10years. They came straight from the heart and if I never believed other things, this I will always believe. 

You have stood by me in my good and bad times and I know I can always count on you. A friend who knows my flaws, things that tick me off and what makes me happy and you still choose to be my friend. I’ve cried and laughed the most with you, and we’ve always kept it real. We've shared even the little we had when one of us was down.

The person who’s great desire is to see me happy and get a man who’ll value me and treat me in the best way possible. I will always appreciate you and this here today, is just to honour and appreciate you for believing in me and always making me feel so so special. It was your birthday yesterday, so I want to wish you long life and God’s blessings A.D (aka My Kichaa)

From Your Angel here on earth!