ONE SWEET DAY!!

The day you were born I became the happiest aunty!

You were the reason I never spent weekends at my place just so I could be with you.

I remember your dad telling me that I filled your body with my fingerprints,

and how I should go get my own child.

You were growing up so fast darling and that always made me smile.

Then you became sick my baby.

As usual I had to come be with you.

I remember that night laughing at how chubby you had become.

But you were not bubbly as before darling.

You are the reason I also couldn’t eat that night.

How I prayed for you while I held you in my arms for hours.

The little kisses I put on your cheeks as you went to sleep baby,

Yes I know you remember them.

How I left in the morning to go to church and said goodbye to you,

Not knowing it would be my last.

Baby, I remember that call I received that night that you were no more!

How I threw my phone on the bed saying”No it’s not true!”

I had prayed for you baby, and God was to heal you that day.

I was with you that morning so how could it happen?

I had never felt that kind of pain in my life baby.

I cried till I couldn’t cry any more for you.

I became so angry with God for taking you.

Life just stopped when you stopped.

Your little lifeless body my darling.

Only 3months with you but you brought so much joy.

And now the pain was in the same measure.

I am sorry I never poured soil on your grave honey.

I couldn’t bury you, no not you.

Now I look back and I know God allowed to take you back angel.

That HE allowed me to pray for you to prepare you for your journey back.

I still think and miss you so much baby.

But an angel you were and an angel you will always be.

Till we meet again, I will always treasure you.

The song below always reminds me of you:

(One Sweet Day by Mariah Carey and Boys II Men)

Never had I imagined,
Living without your smile.
Feeling and knowing you hear me,
It keeps me alive.

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven.
Like so many friends we've lost along the way.
And I know eventually we'll be together,
One sweet day!

BELIEVE IN WHAT GOD SAYS

We all have those people who we meet daily in our day to day lives. Mine happens to be this elderly motorcycle man. As I was heading to work, he started telling me stories about his family and how a family brings honor to someone.Then he throws a question at me, wanting to know if I plan on getting married anytime soon. I told him yes and he was happy that I wasn't like the other ladies he carries on his motorbike. He even went ahead to give me advice on marriage.

He then changes the topic and asks if I live at place ABC to which I say no, but I stay in DEF and would one day desire to live at ABC. His next comment got me off guard because he said that then in DEF I must be living in the ''poshest'' area because I have money!! I don't know where he got such a notion from and he smiled and bid me farewell as I had already reached my destination.

As I thought about that scenario, I remembered this verse in the Bible:

Mal 3:12 Then all the nations will call you blessed, for yours will be a delightful land," says the LORD Almighty!

Friends, many are the times that we may be going through storms that only us know of yet people out there admire who we are. You may look down on yourself and even forget your worth but God always has a way of reminding us who we are. A Royal Priesthood, a chosen generation! 

Psalms 1:3 (paraphrased) : You shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that brings forth its fruit in its season,whose leaf also shall not wither;and whatever you do shall prosper.

Whose report shall you believe in? The report of your current situation, or the report of the Lord? Remember, even in your lowest moment, there is someone out there looking up to you! So stand up and walk with your head high like a child of the Most High God.

Shalom.

I AM NOTHING WITHOUT YOU

I know I am not the best you have ever met,

Neither am I the one who makes your days.

But Despite all my short comings,

Despite all I put you through,

You are the one I treasure.

I am growing into this great person because of you.

You make me want to be the best I can be,

It may sound cliché but I look up to you.

No matter your weaknesses,

All I see are your strengths!

I know I am not the easiest person to be around,

But you know how to keep me in check.

You have made me a better person.

I pray that despite the storms of life we face,

I will never let go of your hand.

I can’t imagine life without you honey.

But if I don’t make it to see tomorrow…

If this is the last you hear from me…

Know that you held a special place in my heart,

And I loved you with every bit of me.

MY LOVE

If you knew I’m waiting for you,

Would you rush to me?

If you knew how long I want,

To be by your side,

Would you come hold me?

Maybe I’m impatient.

Maybe Not!

But I know,

You are worth this long wait.

Coz in your eyes, I will see your soul...

A sweet soul meant to be cherished.

A heart full of unconditional love...

Arms that will hold me with love...

Your chest and shoulders to lean on,

When I really need support.

A voice that will soothe me to sleep,

With all the sweet nothings.

My king and Priest of our home,

The love I have for you,

Is meant for you alone.

A love that will never fade,

And if it fades,

I will still have a best friend in you,

And we will go back to where it all started.

I just want to be with you,

We fulfil what God called us to do,

Till we breathe our last my love.

CHOOSE WHAT IS RIGHT

There are times when you just sit and reflect on your life. Times you steer away from relationships, some friends and some places. And I had a 1 year hiatus from all that. Interestingly, it was fun knowing very well I am the kind of person that is used to have many people around me in all seasons. But this was different! I only realized later that some had just vanished in thin air and I no longer heard from them.

One day at a time sweet Jesus 
That's all I'm asking from you. 
Just give me the strength 
To do everyday what I have to do. 
Yesterday's gone sweet Jesus 
And tomorrow may never be mine. 
Lord help me today, show me the way 
One day at a time. 
(One day at a time by Bill & Gloria Geither)

I would sing to myself and life as it were, continued. Then out of no where within a short span, I got to offers from two different guys. They both were so similar in that, the both wanted to share their lives with me. Great, right? But they were not born again.  Ever had the verse “Be thou not unequally yoked with unbelievers’’ (2Cor 6:14) play in your mind? This was that time. I chose to flip the coin..being married to either of them would mean, no more paying rent as each had his own house, (That means saving my money and doing something worthwhile with it), I would  have someone by my side every morning I woke up, I would dine with the who’s who in town, live in the leafy suburbs, drive my own E class and have everything at my disposal. Such thoughts can make you smile instantly, right? And so many things came to mind.. When Jesus said this is the straight and narrow I guess HE had this day in mind. And it was hard not to resist this offer.

Then I remembered how our Lord Jesus after fasting for 40days, the devil went and tempted HIM by showing HIM the kingdoms of the world and their splendor etc n how he would give them to Jesus if HE just worshipped him?! Oh Get behind me satan!

I believe many are the times we find ourselves in such situations, where the deal seems too good to be true and the deals come at a point where you really needed such in your life. Life is what you make it. You can choose to go for it or let it go! God gave us free will and the Holy Spirit being a Gentle Spirit, won’t force you on what to do or what not to do. It’s so easy to fall in that trap but then the bible says, cursed is the one who puts his trust in man (Jer 17:5). 

Who do you look up to in times of trouble? Who do you cry to when your marriage is breaking down? Who do you first think of when your house is about to be shut? Who do you run to when your children have been sent home for fees? Is it Jehovah Jireh or “Man jireh’’? He is the same God who fed the Israelites with manna from heaven, the one who fed Prophet Elijah through a Raven. What is too hard for him to handle? Will you sell your soul to the devil for earthly pleasures and risk losing on having eternal life?

Yes the conditions are tough, yes you want that good life, and the Father who has written your name in the palms of His hands is aware. He created you, so he is aware. He lives inside of you so HE is not a stranger. Trust all your cares to HIM, be not unequally yoked or risk being yoked forever. If HE gave you HIS Only Son, what can’t HE give you? Yes you have prayed and fasted; you have sowed seeds, but just put your trust in HIM. Wait a little while, hold on a bit longer, for HE makes all things beautiful in HIS own time. Delay is not denial and HE will surely come through for you.

May you allow HIM to always order your steps, Be a Lamp unto your feet and a Light unto your paths. That on the Day of Judgment, HE may say, “Well done my good and faithful servant”. 

Shalom!

THERE IS A REASON...

In life we, sometimes, feel like we have everything well covered and everything seems to be going as per our plan. But, what happens when things take a U-turn? When you have prayed and fasted and the situation gets worse? Do you give up on God and prayer? I have been there before and felt my life turning upside down. I even wondered where God was!

1 Thess 5:17-18:  17 Pray without ceasing.18 In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.

 I know many can relate to this scenario or know someone who went through the same. It’s in this situation that I learnt to seek God even the more. I learnt to praise and thank Him in the storm amidst tears. It’s in this season that I realized HE was there! That when HE said HE will never leave me nor forsake me, HE meant it!

Deut 31:6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."(NIV)

Sometimes, God wants to speak to you as an individual and will allow stuff to happen so that HE gets your attention. We are in this world but not of this world. Our lives belong to HIM; as long as you surrender to HIM, you will have to move as HE speaks.In the high waters, in the fire, on the mountains and in the valleys just move!!HE is with you.

In everything we go through, God is always working behind the scenes . We normally don’ t understand it for at that time our minds are clouded by the issue at hand, and the tears in our eyes blocks the view of what God has in store for us. Even in an exam room, the teacher is always silent but watching; the same applies to God. HE may be silent when we go through tests, but working behind the scenes for our good (Jer 29:11) It‘s only after we have sobered up, and ready to hear from HIM that we get to see the clear print of what happened and what He wants us to do. 

Then the Tests become Testimonies, the Mess becomes a message, and like fine gold, you come out of the fire purer and refined for the Glory of His Name.

May HIS will prevail over your life.

Shalom!

GOD IS NOT AN AUTHOR OF CONFUSION

Another day that I had high hopes,

I believed God would give me a way forward,

But I ended up more confused.

GOD IS NOT AN AUTHOR OF CONFUSION!!

What should I believe in?

All I need is a revelation,

That God will speak to me one more time,

FOR HE AINT AN AUTHOR OF CONFUSION!!

I thought it was just an attack,

I thought it was just a test,

I thought He speaks through dreams,

AND YES HE DOES, FOR HE IS NOT AN AUTHOR OF CONFUSION!!

HIS ways aint my ways,

HIS thoughts aint my thoughts,

HE has good plans for me,

HE alone can tell what this is all about,

HE alone will give me peace that surpasses human understanding,

FOR HE IS NOT AN AUTHOR OF CONFUSION!!